Area 151

Some days it’s not worth chewing through the leather straps.

I am out of sorts today.  The dog’s gotten another foot infection (we don’t know why they’re reccuring like this), and she’s panting and wheezing, and getting less interested in her meals, and the earliest vet appointment we could get was tomorrow morning.

So we’re back on couch patrol, and aside from last night on the couch, Matt’s been relatively unavailable during this resurgence of dog troubles.  Late last night I finally got very sad and quiet for a while, and then told him I felt like he’d left me to handle this all alone.  He acknowledged that was the case (undeniably so for Wednesday evening, but in a somewhat more nuanced–i.e., more helpful–fashion earlier in the week).  That’s when he volunteered for couch duty.

This morning, I arrived at work and realized that I hadn’t loaded the day’s CDs into my CD wallet for listening at work.  Don’t get me wrong: I’ve got music to get me through the day: yesterday’s CDs and Frankenpod.  But this oversight is gonna throw me off-pace for my 2006 Annual Alphabetic CD Crawl!  Which isn’t that much of a tragedy, I admit.  But I am so accustomed to swapping out one day’s listened discs and putting in the next handful–to have so entirely flaked on that habit suggest something to me about how out-of-sorts and out-of-focus I am today.

And I am struggling with the urge to go downstairs and buy a bacon-egg-and-cheese at the cafe.  I’ve signed back into Sparkpeople, and I’ve been using the calorie counters, and I’ve started abtually using the message boards and support resources to get back on track with my eating habits.  I’ve had three very good days tracking calories.  And now I’m really REALLY tempted to blow it all with a giant unecessray fat-sandwich.  (The consolation, if I do slip, is that I’ve noticed myself eating much less for lunch and daytime snacks on days I go for the breakfast sandwich.  It may not balance all the way, but there will be some calorie-balancing effect.)

I’ve got a 2 PM meeting today.  After that, I might take some work home with me so that I can keep a closer eye on Her Pupness.  We’ll see.

UPDATE: I caved and got the evil breakfast sandwich.  I’ve also had no desire to eat since, and it’s 1:30, so there’s slight hopes of recouping the day’s calorie count.  Mostly.

I also signed up for a free preview of the Rhapsody music subscription service, which should allow me streaming audio access to most of the Prince songs I woulda heard if I’d remembered to pack my CDs.  Remind me to research more streaming audio sites so I’ve got someone else’s free preview to try out if I ever make this mistake again….